I saw that you said you wanted to die. Please don't think that. I'm always here to talk to you. Suicide might seem like the solution, but it's not, I promise. You might think that no one cares, but they do and they'd be horrified if you killed yourself. It's not the answer. Please don't think that.
It won't get worse, it will get better. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. But it will get better. I promise you. Tell someone that you're hurting and they will help. Your parents, a teacher, any trusted adult. Someone who will listen to you and will help. Here are two videos that I think you should watch. They helped me so much.